Each day I strive to maintain a practice of my morning ritual, which usually involves a bit of stretching, forms of shintaido, Buddhist chanting, and journaling. During my journaling this morning I felt such a surge of renewed energy after the holidays and the stressful move from the old home to the new space we now live in. It was an amazing resurgence of energy. I wanted to share the messages that came from my journaling with you today.
Most of us live our lives held back by situations and past stories – a mental and emotional prison, if you will. While we may be moving along quite successfully, there can be some thing in the back of our mind that comes back to life when activated by specific people or situations. For example, I experience a very uncomfortable period about 3 to 4 years ago in a corporate position I held. In my opinion and experience of the situation, the leaders I reported to created a situation (won’t give it power by getting into the details) that was founded in untruths and were based in others discomfort of feeling inadequately skilled to perform their positions (including these leaders in authority of me). Despite the undeniable success in my role and company, I allowed this situation and these sub-standard performing leaders to make me feel as though I was unsuccessful and less knowledgeable than they. Why? I didn’t know at the time, other than the fact that we are taught not to question authority or the motives and mindsets of those in authority (organizational leaders, community leaders, etc). That is where the lesson from today comes in.
It isn’t about who was right or wrong. It isn’t about reliving the frustration and discomfort of the situation. Today I realized that I never really let go of the anger, hurt and being purely disappointed in these two people I had put my trust in. Yet, today I allow myself the space to let these feelings go and take back the power I had long given these undeserving individuals. Neither they nor the situation they created are worthy of my focus and attention.
Free yourself from the old story
You see. We are free to release ourselves from the “old story” that holds us back. Often times we don’t even see how the story holds us back, but every now and again the story can re-play in our minds. When this happens, the old story works to limit our greatness and reduce our confidence and self esteem. Today is about taking back the power for yourself and using that power to step out from among those who are stuck in the realm of status quo and mediocrity. Stepping out is a necessity for you to embrace your full greatness and authenticity. To remain among the heard only keeps you trapped in the mediocrity you have come to find “comfort” in.
So, what do you do? It is time to free yourself from the false comfort you have allowed yourself to remain in, and agree to finally release yourself and realize that you are the one who makes decisions and have choice in the way you lead and live your life. You need not care about the approval of others, nor require recognition from others. Your greatness, strengths, and wisdom are not validated, nor dependent, on the approval of others. Your life is not validated by the acceptance of others. Who are these “others” that you would need their approval to validate living and loving the way you know to be the way for you?
We are brought up to feel as though we need to fit in, versus stand out. I was speaking to a group of HR peers once about a success I had in working with a leader who was less than capable of holding the position he held in an organization ( I know, not common but it happens right?). Following my discussion, I was scolded by my own HR leader for what she called, “grandstanding” in front of our peers. I felt like a kid who had been scolded by my parent and withdrew inside myself … simmering with anger that later turned to shame. Why? I had done nothing wrong. I was asked to speak about the process we had been deploying among our clients and I was speaking confidently about the power of our process and the gaps we had surfaced as a result of the process. AH HA! I was finally aware of the situation at hand. Some of the gaps we surfaced made others feel uncomfortable because they had failed in the past to surface these same things when servicing this same client group – this leader. My conversation was elevating our group from among the status quo mediocrity of the “HR team.” It was uncomfortable for them, so the “right” thing to do would be to not cause them discomfort. Bullshit! I was grandstanding? No! I was simply standing in my power and expertise. Yet, I felt bad about it because I had been made to to feel wrong because I was causing an awakening among the “dead.”
Remember! Acceptance from others does not validate or invalidate your successes and expertise. Sure, what you offer and bring to the table may not be what the organization, circle of friends, or others are comfortable with accepting, or feel ready for. So, the choice is whether to continue to push the envelope with these “groups”, or elect to go where these ideas, strengths and expertise can be better utilized and where the “soil” is ready for the harvesting of the results of your expertise, greatness and unique promise of value.
Come out from among them
The phrase that came up for me during the journaling was, “come out from among them.” Come out from among them and allow your voice (your unique voice) to emerge from the herd of mediocrity. Allow yourself to shake of the limitations of status quo that poisons the herd. This poison that lulls the herd to sleep while others excel and surpass their aging and archaic expertise and mindsets of yesterday. Come out from among them and bypass, no surpass, those who are lulled by the dull sound of “comforting mediocrity.”
Awaken
awaken from the hypnotic sleep you’ve been under – unconsciously hypnotized by the sense of false comfort
remove the mask of similarity that has clouded the vision of yourself and your future
release yourself from the shackles of judgement, which implore you to deny your uniqueness
embrace your own unique power and voice of knowing
– Thom Qafzezi (2014)
You’ve traded your knowledge and knowing for false acceptance. Minimally rewarded to fit into a shoe designed for someone else who is comfortable with mediocrity. You’ve worn this for so long you are unconscious to the pain of wearing a shoe that is 4 sizes to small.
Being comfortable in “sameness” is a lie we sell ourselves – and we buy it at a great price. The price of self acceptance and confidence. There is greater beauty in the discomfort of emerging – coming out from among the limitations set by others to embrace your authentic and unique self.
There is freedom on the other side of fear, the fear of coming out from among – the shedding of sameness. Take the first step and decide … then, take the second step and MOVE! The third step is celebrating your freedom.
I would love to hear from those who are struggling to step into their own. Feel free to reach out to me at info@thomqafzezi.com or if you need a little extra help stepping out from among what holds you back, visit It’s Faked Up!™ and check out of offerings to help you jump start your transformation. By the way, until Jan 31st, 2014 you can take advantage of the upcoming April It’s Faked Up™ curriculum and Bahamas cruise at 50% off the advertised price. To take advantage of this limited time offer, visit Friends and Family to find out more and register. Early registration is recommended, as space is limited to 20 participants.